This line hit deep. The way you express that feeling of being almost there of transformation just shy of completion is something I think a lot of us can relate to.
It’s as if we're constantly cycling through versions of ourselves, still haunted by the 'her' we used to be and not quite sure how to fully let her go.
Your writing perfectly describes that tug-of-war between wanting to move forward and being bound by old parts of ourselves, and you articulate it so beautifully.
Thanks for sharing.